Four Years...

Just sitting here tonight thinking that wow, in little more than 4 months, it will be four years since Michael Jackson, the kindest man who ever lived, died at the hands of those sworn to and oath of care for him.  Four years!  It makes me remember that one of the last things Michael told us was that we had 4 years to get it right.  Perhaps he was talking about the planet and the environment.  Perhaps he was talking about learning to love each other & living a peaceful co-existence. Or perhaps he was talking about him. I am the perpetual skeptic and one who has always believed that Michael knew that things were being planned and plotted against him.  Perhaps it was a message for us, giving us time to go through the many stages that would come with grief should tragedy befall him, to continue to question with an open mind what we would be told, the lies we would be fed.  Four years is still time enough to make wrongs right in most legal situations.  I will always believe there was a conspiracy behind Michael Jackson’s death.  I might never be able to see it proven, but I do believe that one day all truth will be revealed and will see the light of day.

Michael Jackson had a mind of his own, with his own agendas, and his own outlook.  He was the most prolific entertainer in the world. He had more than most of everything and stood to gain even more.  But he had no line item on his ledger to re-invest his fortune into the business.  No, no… not Michael!  He had other, far greater aspirations.  He did not intend to re-invest into SONY or any other industry.  He had plans to use his hard earned earnings for children and their causes.  He told us as much.  And just as we heard it from his own lips, certainly so did others who felt they would lose out on any such deal.  Even though they tried to bleed him dry off the top, even taking here and there that which wasn’t theirs for the taking, they were still greedy and envious and felt obliged to even more.  It feels as if there was an animosity in the air, and Michael knew the risks he faced.  Who knows what kind of stressors were placed on Michael after these announcements were made.  I mean, how dare he!  He told us that these will be my last shows.  What?  That’s a hell of an announcement to the ears of ones eager for it to go on and on so they would get richer and richer.  And to think that even from this final endeavor, there were no plans to break off an extra piece for the Industry.

There have been a lot revealed, a lot alleged, and a lot of suspicion over these 3 plus years since losing Michael.  Something’s got to give.  I only hope that we have learned something and have used this time to reflect and research and been a positive force on this earth.  In these 4 years that Michael told us we had to get it right, I hope in our own way we have been working towards that end; be it to change the world, save the planet, becoming more compassionate, or simply trying to tie all the loose ends together.  I just hope that we each are doing our parts.  It takes all of it. No offering is too small. Every one matters.

Come June 25, 2013 when I stand at the entrance of Forest Lawn, I want to be able to say to Michael that I am doing and will continue to do my best to make a change. I want him to know my heart and that I have always believed in him and what he stood for, over and above anybody else.  I want to be able to stand there in honor of him and finally say out loud Michael, I love you, I love you more.  Though I won’t be able to see his face or hear his voice, I know that he will hear me and I know that he will smile.

Let the words of my mouth and the meditation of my heart be acceptable in his sight.  I know what must have been in his heart when he said we are the world…