In my trials, and my tribulations - will you still care? Will you be there?

The IV bag had propofol just poured into it and the reason I believe an actual bottle was inside was because Murray dropped it in while filling the IV and was either too damn sorry or didn't want to put his hand in there to pull it out.  This bastard just filled the bag with propofol and left Michael in the room so so he could go and talk to his whores or what ever the hell he was occupying his time with, without having to to be disturbed by his patient needing is assistance.  If that's not a socio psycho path, then who is?  Even with all of that being illustrated, they are still going to try to say that Michael injected or even drank the stuff himself.  They are trying still to implicate that the empty bottle (200 ml) found on the floor and the syringe and the broken needle are all the handy work of Michael injecting or trying to inject himself.  I'm not buying it.  Not for one second.  And for Joe jackson to be buddied up with Brian Oxman outside his son's hearing for his murder, still implying that Michael was an addict, is scandalous and a damn shame.  All Joe wants is publicity so he can win or try to win his case against AEG.  He is actually having his civil case heard during Michael's criminal death case.  So where does his priorities lie?  Scandalous!  A poor excuse for a man and/or a father.  Has he ever really LOVED MICHAEL JACKSON?  I mean really.  Why not give the media something to make fun of again, Joe.  Wow.  Way to go.

But I digress, the loophole that will probably allow this foolishness to be allowed in court is Murray saying that he gave MJ 25 ml of the drug which would put him down for only 10 minutes.  Murray claiming "conveniently" not to have been in the room for longer than that gives him his alibi., and a window of opportunity for him to assert that he wasn't in there so unless someone else entered and injected MJ, then MJ injected himself.  This is going to get ugly, especially next week when they discuss the autopsy.  Don't think I'll be able to take hearing all the details of Michael being dissected.  I don't think I can.

All of this is driving me insane.  It's unbelievable and unbearable to think that almost 1000 ml of this shit was put into Michael's body because it was an "inconvenience" to Murray to do what he was getting overly paid to do. That man should be institutionalized forever.  He is a menace to society, better yet, the devil incarnate.  Evil inside and out.

Keep praying and please write a letter to the DA and ask that they up the charges in this case.  It is a travesty of justice for this man to only be facing at the most 4 years, if he even gets that.  This is sinful and I know God is not satisfied.  Look at all the apocalyptic things that are happening since Michael's death.  Read Revelations.  They'd better wake up and recognize.  2012 might just be more than a prediction.  It feels like the end is surely near.  You don't mess with God's children.  Did they learn nothing from history?

Another year has gone, and I'm still all alone

We ushered out 2010 and welcomed in 2011.  What a difference a day makes, or so they say.  How wonderful it would be to say that this for me was a joyous occasion, a cause for celebration.  But in truth, I cannot.  I take things one day at a time. So yesterday was not much different than the day before in that I am still relatively at square one in that there is still no change in status regarding the Dr. Conrad Murray case.  I simply cannot move on.  I have tried to tell myself that patience is a virtue in hopes that it would allow me to turn some of my angst into the ability to relax and let go.  But it has not.  I'm totally stuck and I fear I will continue to be until there is finally some solution if not resolution.

Needless then to say that I am holding my breath, counting the hours, the minutes for this trial to finally get  on.  And I am feverently praying with all that is in me that the conclusion will be a worthy one.  Nothing in my life is more important.  It seems the wait has been lifelong.

I do know that I am blessed to have lived to see this day.  It looked kinda questionable for a while, but God had my back so here I stand.  I guess even He knew that if given just one more day to bring me a step closer to seeing some resolve, would render me His worthy servant with every breath that I take.  I thank him every single day for each day he allows me to wake up and continue to live on this planet.  Then I thank him twice for allowing me another day to fight for the injustices the world continues to heap onto Michael Jackson.  God obviously know my heart better than even I do.  I'm sure that he knws Michael's too and he will not let him fall.  I know he won't.